TxPepper's HideAway

Why? The warm gentle wind dries my tears, as I think about how far you are from here. As I look out to sea, I close my eyes and think of you beside me. Your arms around me, I can still feel, oh,.........it seems so real. My heart yearns for you, it cries wanting you still. Why did you have to go, when I still love you so? We had so much more to give, so much more to feel. So many more nights, awaited us. Beautiful...long...loving nights, where we could have held each other ever so tight. But I knew....deep down it could never be, never be.........you and me. txPepper 3-98

Bitter Cold It is cold here, this winter day. I add more wood to the fireplace, to take the chill away. The wind howls outside, wanting in. But I have locked the doors, it can't come in. I stare out the window, for hours on end. Thinking about things, that might have been. I watch the snow falling from the sky, as I wonder why. Why, do I sit here alone with my doors locked like no ones home? I am here alone with my thoughts, and they bring no comfort... all is lost. I have nothing more to give. I've loved and have been loved not. The fire is going out........ no more wood to make it light. Soon I will feel nothing, no pain.......no hurt. The wind outside, is calling my name. But I can't let it in, for soon....life will be at an end........ txPepper

Liquor mmmm...the sweet taste of liquor on my lips, it numbs me...... helps me get thru the day. And at night.......it lets me dream, the impossible dream. One that will never come true, the one about you. I play my music as I drink that sweet..... liquor, Makes me think of you, the life we could have, but will never have......I know this to be true. mmmmm.....makes me feel good, until the wee hours of the night. Then I start to feel things aren’t right, things are coming apart. So late in the night....the numbness has become like a knife in the heart, tearing it apart. Shatters my dreams....makes me feel so all alone, no one to call my own. mmmm.....sweet taste of liquor on my lips, maybe one day ......my love will be the sweet taste on my lips. maybe.......one day. txPepper 3-21-98

Lovers Moon They say the full moon is for lovers, because it lights their way to ecstacy. But not for me as I look up at the moon. I am alone. It's up there so high so round and bright, does light up the sky, it makes me cry. I have no one who will sit and dream a lovers dream with me under the moon light, no one beside me. I had a dream once, but it has faded away. It's out of my reach, nothing more I can say. The wind is starting to blow and moving the clouds over the glow of the moon. It too will fade away, just as our love has. But it will come back another day, You won't. txPepper 6-98

My Daughter My daughter is one of a kind. No duplicates, no doubles, no two of a kind. She has spirit, heart and a willful mind. At times she is sweet and kind, other times she'll make you walk the line........ She has beauty and brains, but a credit card is her downfall, she will spend it all.........up to the line. This daughter of mine, she is one of a kind. I love her adventurous side, the will she has to try. The way she keeps going and never says die. I love this daughter of mine...........she is one of a kind. Mom 6/98

My Friend You call us "friends," but we are not. You talk of boundries and the line you will not cross. How I long to feel the warmth of your touch, the sweet taste of your lips. You know you have my heart, but you keep us apart. The dark of night brings thoughts of you. The glow of morning sun, brings another day. Thou beautiful and bright, I see only night and thoughts of you. Of you my "friend," you are there .....but you are not txPEPPER 3/98

Good Bye I guess this is good - bye my friend, my passionate man. I guess you won't be taking my hand, and going to that fantasy land. The one where all your dreams would have come true. But, you are off to greener pastures now, as you leave this Texas gal. You take with you my heart. But, you do leave me with the fondness of memories. I'll remember your words your laughter and how you brought life back into me. You helped me to reach inside myself to pull out the words that I write. So, good - bye by friend, didn't think it would ever end. txPEPPER 9/98

You or Him Tears flow as the music plays, the drinks are taking hold. I think of you and him, you I have, but him I don't. He is so much more like me then you. You are distance and cold, he is not ....he is open and warm He listens, you can not hear. He feels things, you are numb. He is what I want, what I need You are just not there for me, not anymore. He waits for me, you don't know I am here. What do I do? Do I stay and slowly fade away? Or do I go to him???? The music plays and the drinks take hold. I love you...but he knows how to make me feel things feel things that I didn't know I could feel things that were locked away...but he found the way. What now? What do I do, do I leave you for him? The music plays and the drinks take hold, numbs my mind. I am so lonely.....I think of nothing but him. You are not in my thoughts you have pulled away, so far I just can't reach you any more. So I think of him and little more. My fault....yours????? Maybe both We have drifted apart and it breaks my heart. But I have cried so many tears, and tears doesn't mean a broken heart. So I guess, we will part. txPEPPER 3/29/98

Waves Seagulls fly overhead, as I watch the white topped waves come rushing in. The ocean water is cleaning the beach, takes back to sea all it can reach. The sun is hidden by the morning fog. Seems so dreary here today, as I watch the waves. They seems endless in their pursuit Why are they in a hurry to come a shore? Almost like..... they are afraid to stay out there in the ocean....anymore. I wish I could stay here all day.....so quiet here. But home life is calling me away. I must leave soon.....I just can't stay. The waves.....they are beckoning me, wants me to stay. I think it wants to take me back with it when it goes. When the tide goes back to sea, it wants me to follow...... wants me to come and see...... see the beauty it holds beneath .......the sea. txPepper

Your Wish You call me your little star, because once you wished upon one. Now you say your wish has come true, that it has brought me to you. The love I have for you, shines as bright in my eyes, as the stars do in the sky. You make me so happy, it's beyond belief. We are made for one another. Seems we are drawn to each other, a pulling so strong we just can't fight it. You feel what I feel. Your desires are mine. I am always on your mind and you are on mine. Like the stars that twinkle above, I give you all my love. So baby, keep on wishing on that star for our love to never go away, for it not to stray. Because baby, I am here to stay. txPepper

Take My Hand You are a very passionate man. Just take my hand, and I will take you to a fantasy land. Where all your wants and desires, are given on demand. You will love this fantasy land, my passionate man. All your dreams come true here, no nightmares or fears. No games will you have to play, just be yourself, all chains taken away. Here my love, indulge in your reveries. In here you will be young again, with the endurance of youth you once had Just relax and let it all come to you, all your wants and desires. I am here to please you. I want for nothing more, but just to be with you. My passionate man my love take my hand. txPepper 3-98

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