I stepped out of my house this morning
to a camera in my face.
I had to put my head down low,
and to my car I had to race.

The people came from all directions,
and they never go away.
They never even really care
what I have to say.

Places I could never go
are now at my demand.
And everywhere I go these days
it would seem I'm in command.

My life has changed so dramatically,
and in so many different ways.
People who would have ignored me before,
now fill my ears with praise.
Lately, it has seemed to me,
that I am all alone.
Which is funny, if you stop and think,
because I am never on my own.

My every waking hour
is now highly scrutinized.
And would it be okay, for me to say,
it brings tears to my eyes?

It's not all bad.
I know it's true,
and I appreciate the attention.
Believe me, I do.

But sometimes it's just too much.
Right now I feel so out of touch,
with who I am or where I've been.
Hopefully, someday, I will be able to fill in
the spots, that seem so empty now.
But as for the moment,
I am not quite sure how.

So please excuse me if I am not
quite what I seem.
But, then again,
I never really wanted to be
Anybody's Dream...

To The Paparazzi: ...by Jenlyn....

Take my picture if you want
And write whatever you wish...
To you I am not a person
But just a dollar sign that flashes in your eyes.

Here I am so snap away
And go ahead and write your lies.
Try not to think about the pain
That what you do will cause
Because I guess that in your line of work,
Guilt doesn't factor in as a clause.

When I think about my life
And all the things I'd like to change,
One would be that you would stay
Far out of my range,
But since there is no way
That I can ever really change the past,
I guess that all I can really do
Is hope this dies out fast.

It is true that as an actor
I have chosen life in the public eye,
But is that any reason why
You should write things
That would make my mother cry?

Please listen to what I am saying
And I pray you take it to heart,
Then maybe I can put back the pieces of my life
That have been torn apart.